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13 June 2009 @ 08:54 pm
I'm just beating my head against the wall. I find myself trying to hold onto things aren't worth holding onto anymore. It's like there's no point trying to hold onto them. It's hopeless. Pointless. Useless. Reality hurts. Ouch. I wouldn't make it this October. I just know. Another three months left. Yet, here I am struggling with problems hanging over my head for many weeks now. It's an uphill battle. The way I see it now; it's no go for UK. Unless, there's a twist to my life story. Like I hit a jackpot or something, which is not happening, not in a million years! I'm generally not a lucky person.

Some people says when one door closes, another one opens. I believe that. I HAVE to believe that. I'm going to pull out all the stops to make sure I can make it this time around.

Strength. That's all I need now.
Current Location: Selangor
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: Through the Rain, Mariah Carey
12 June 2009 @ 06:44 pm
One word. Frustration. Uggh. I woke up so early this morning focused with these thoughts in my brain Get my academic transcript and go to the bank for bank draft. At the end of the day, I did none of those. Nada. Nein. I failed to get the transcript. I didn't go to the bank. Follow my story:

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Current Location: Selangor
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Can't Take That Away, Mariah Carey
11 June 2009 @ 09:43 am
Morning peeps! I slept like a baby last night. Flu med. It really worked. 

The day before today. I went to see my overseas education consultant as my Mom and Dad suggested me to go for another option, Land Down Under. Yep. You bet. I'm going to apply for some Australian universities. Heh. Going for Oz, guess I'll be hearing alot of  "G'day mate" or "Good on ya" and I'll be like, err what? Translation please. Uhuh. Enough yabbering Azra! Ookay. The application will be for backup. Besides the exchange rate for AUD is way cheaper compared to EURO or Pounds. A few Australian universities caught my interest. I was so excited. Thrilled and everything. *sniff sniff* I smell hope. But I have to prepare a bank draft AUD70 for the university's proccesing fee. For a better future, I won't whinge.

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Current Location: Selangor
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Born To Try, Delta Goodrem
11 June 2009 @ 12:59 am
Few days ago I received an email from Cranfield University. Saddest momentCollapse )
Current Location: Selangor
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Current Music: The Climb, Miley Cyrus
08 June 2009 @ 11:21 pm
Guten tag! Guten tag! Guten tag! Guten tag! It's hello/good day in German. But I bet most of you already know. Whatevs. I still want to say it. Guten tag! Guten tag! Guten tag! I'm such a retardo. lol. Guten tag! Guten tag!

Hey hey. Yesss. Do pinch my cheek, but I am highly aware of the existence of moi other blog. Nahh. I won't r.i.p that blog, unless some compu-geeks manage to hack the Blogger Dot Com and terminate every single account. Then that's not in my power, sorry. I have dreams. Life long dreams. Heck, I grew up with these dreams in my soul. For if without these dreams, life would be like a broken-winged bird. Hah. Lj will be a place where I shall be writing down (more like, typing out) my journey in pursuing my dreams. So I'm going to share it with you folks! Deep down within me, I hope it will inspire those who have dreams (doesn't matter what your dreams are). Perhaps this will revive the sensation, the thrills of having dream(s), or goals. Like, the urge of needing to own the latest gadgets, or limited Hello Kitty M.A.C for girls (I know I do want those Kitty *drools*). The excitement that keeps you thinking over and over again. Like, you're falling in love for the first time, you can't stop thinking about this person. Except in this case, it's your dream. Not a person. Cappish?

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Current Location: Home #2
Current Mood: indifferentindifferent
Current Music: No Boundaries, Adam Lambert